I want to discuss an experience I just had that made me realize a few
things about fear. What I essentially realized was that fear is a
choice, and something very interesting about fear is why we chose to be
afraid. I guess lots of people chose fear for different reasons, and
maybe for some it is not a choice but I think often we do chose to be
On Monday June 2nd I had open heart surgery. I had a
hole in my heart called an ASD and I got it closed up. In September
2007, I learned that I was going to have open heart surgery so I had a
long time to think about it and deal with the idea. Actually it was
soon after I found this out that I was introduced to movies like The
Secret and Abraham The Secret Behind the Secret. I feel like I did
attract these things into my life because I needed them to help me deal
with what I was facing.
At first I was scared to get this
surgery. The thought of being cut open was quite disturbing. But when I
saw Abraham the Secret Behind the Secret I realized that I am not
defined by my body. I am something bigger than my body and I can have
control over my body. With this realization my fear lessened. Thinking
of myself as an eternal being also helped my fear decrease because I
thought, no matter what happens, everything will be OK.
week before my surgery I did many meditations and tried to feel as much
love and peace as I could. It was during this week that I realized that
I was not really scared anymore. I wondered why I had been scared
before. It was probably the night before surgery that I realized why I
had been scared. I was reading Louise Hay's Heal Your Body and the part
about how all physical ailments are a result of either fear or anger
popped off the page at me. I realized that our bodies give us
indications of how we're out of alignment with our true selves, and
having fear is one of the ways we get out of alignment.
then why was I scared? I think that we chose fear because we think it
serves us in some way. For me it was almost like a programmed fear. I
just thought it is normal to be scared about surgery, so that is what I
felt. In certain situations fear is a good thing to have because it
makes us avoid dangerous situations or it helps us get out of dangerous
situations. For example, if we're in a situation where we need to run
to save our lives, fear releases adrenaline and enables us to have a
physical reaction which helps us escape more easily.
often have fear when it does not serve us in this way. I think that we
think having fear will protect us because in other situations it does.
And then when we are scared we attract that which we fear and we think
this confirms that we were correct to be scared in the first place. But
if we weren't scared we wouldn't have attracted that which we fear so
fear is really not the protective emotion that we think it is in many
The night before my surgery I watched Abraham the
Secret Behind the Secret again and I slept so well that night. I felt
peace and love and I knew I could handle whatever happened. I also knew
that if I chose to be scared it would be more difficult for me to
handle what was to happen. I felt that if I was peaceful and happy my
vibrations of peace would be absorbed by the staff performing the
surgery and everything would go smoothly. Conversely I thought that if
I was scared they would feel my stress. I told myself that I didn't
have to worry about what was to happen when I was under the anesthetic
because I wouldn't really be there. It was not my job to control that
situation in detail it was just my job to be happy.
that as a result of my peace, and joy going into surgery it went very
well. I used to be very scared of needles but instead of being scared I
said things to myself like, "They are giving me medicine of joy". When
they took the drainage tubes out of my chest while I was awake, I said
"I am releasing the tubes of Joy", and it was actually a pretty cool
experience, instead of one that would have made me faint.
might have been one of the best things that has ever happened to me,
because it has shown me how much I can handle, and it has given me a
greater appreciation for everything in life.
Thanks for this post, Jodi
It's an excellent one about the mind
and spirit and seeing beyond what we have believed our bodies to be,
beyond the physical that we see and calling through to what more there
Dealing with fear, oftentimes for people when they experience
something physical or health related there is a panic, perhaps also
from the (mis)conception that the physical is 'fixed', it cannot be
changed, 'what could go wrong', etc. And the title of your post changes
that perception which once was an instinctive reaction by people, to
considering and realising their instinctive reactions.
'reality' is that your body is constantly replenishing itself and it is
doing it by the blueprint from your thoughts and emotions.
approach of tapping into that larger part of you through your thoughts
and emotions, perhaps maybe initially grabbing onto something for hope,
and working it, and improving the vibration, and improving the
vibration, and improving the vibration and so on, is a wonderful
example and credit to you for your handling of it, and also your
ability to share and communicate it with others.
You also used a word that people don't often use in the same sentence as surgery, 'joy' lol.